Motherhood, Dark Night & Self-Inquiry: A Poem

I have fallen down to earth into my body.

Here like I've never been here before.

Traversing every cell in my being and what I find is messy and imperfect and dark and in darkness, the light permeates every single cell in my whole body.

This light begins in the middle of my chest and it flickers.

Sometimes it doesn't.

Sometimes it's so numb, I can't even find the centre of my being.

A habit surely return to thought to memory of who I once was or the idea of who I think I should be

Who am I

Who am I here right now, just as I am and what is here can be touched by this very light of awareness of love

The dark doesn't feel so dark any more.

Wrapped in the loving embrace of the hearts totality